Creation

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I like creating stuff. Perhaps not always neat, small physical objects, as I'm simply not too good with such things [see artistic] but all other sorts of things. I like being able to point to something later on in my life and say: Look, I made that. Sometimes, it might be something as small as an essay [see writing and school], but by far my favorite creations are computer programs [see programming] -- some are just small pieces of code, others are big, detailed projects that might even be useful to others (I like to refer to these as `humanity' *g*).

Apart from that, my projects never seem to become truly finished. Perhaps I'm just too much of a perfectionist (at some areas, I definitely am, at others, I'm not even close!) to see when a project really ought to stop. I think I phrased it this way once: "I fly from project to project like a butterfly", and yes, it's true. My proverbial drawers of projects are filled with old remains of what was once extremely interesting projects, capable of filling my mind and time completely... until the interest died off. I think what I long for, is a project interesting enough to keep me going for a real long time... But then, that might be boring in itself; I'm easily bored if I don't find anything useful to do. Sometimes I wonder if that's really a positive or a negative side of me -- I've been told (and I partly agree) that in today's society, being bored is actually healthy, it gives you the time to sit down, relax, do nothing and perhaps be a little reflective [see thinking].

But programs are not the only output I enjoy. I've done the layout on my school's 200-page (A4) yearbook once -- once again, it gives you something you can truly point to, and be proud of (not to mention that you actually have a physical object on the table!). A good photography [see photography] can also give me much of the same feeling -- probably it's all just a part of every human's natural desire to feel progress and achieve something -- except that I have a problem with abstract victories :-) Ouch, I'm noticing that the quality of my writing is descending quite rapidly now, better stop. ;-)